The month of noveling has ended.
I have this love-hate relationship with words--I could put together everything I've ever written about the ability or inability to write.
I know every detail of the English language. But I don't mind if you break the rules, make up a new word, jumble your grammar a bit.
I write because when I speak no one listens, and when I write, no one listens either but at least I can go back and read it and revel in what I have the ability to say. If I speak it aloud, it's gone. Though, then I think of my dad and his musing that sound waves are energy and cannot disappear, but get infinitely weaker, so if we had the technology we could listen to Abe Lincoln as he spoke at Gettysburg. Or me, in high school, reciting these words spoken at Gettysburg.
I made a friend who claimed me as an Author. I decided to accept the post but I really can't let you know anything I've authored, truly.
I am connecting--possibly, finally--to a person I have always admired but has left me with the perpetual insult that maybe wasn't supposed to be at the time, when she looked at my business card and said, "so you're proficient at everything?" and I had to answer yes, as if I thought it were true, but to answer no would not be true, and now I have to carry that with me infinitely. For her, I must be proficient at everything, and she rarely gives me the time of day.
I am proficient at everything but fiction--I reached a mere half my writing goal for this month.
I don't like when people are recorded sounding like they are not well-spoken. I don't like people who are not well-spoken. I don't like when I read poorly written communications, and I don't like it when people know I don't like what they've tried to write. Seriously, if you can't handle the idea that you could always be better, how can you ever improve? Do you like stasis?
Stasis. That's where I am--I am a writer who writes the same things now that I've been writing for years and years.
Like Shakespeare or the guy who wrote the stuff attributed to Shakespeare, whichever ends up being true, I want to have measurable growth over the course of my career as a writer, but I don't trust that that will happen, so I expect that will never truly have a career as a writer.
I don't like musicians who are bad at what they do. I don't like politicians that are easy to make fun of. I don't like when people decide labels for me, because they are inevitably wrong. I can always prove a label wrong.
I don't like when people say they can't write, but often I can't write so it's a hell of a struggle.
I dislike more when people don't even try.